ToxicAntidote

  The sunlight is shining on the top of my head, should I stay or leave the warmth of my bed? Drinking beer while birds sing in the rain, what the hell lets drown the pain. Eat pills or cut my throat with a sharpened knife, does it really matter when all I want is to end my life? Even though I stumble through the darkness at night, I keep my head up high and my eyes straight at the light. When I see your face my heart starts to beat, but I have to stay cool in case I overheat. All the joy and love that you share and give, I've finally found a reason to live.

  If you lie to me,   I'll shoot you with a gun. If you tell me the truth, I'll cut you with a knife. What must you say to me to stay alive?

  You feel the shame in your heart. You are scared. Still you stand tall. You turn your head. A quick glance at the ones behind you. They're laughing. For what reason? You know your boundaries, your own flaws. You know who you are, they don't. If they are laughing with you, you join in on the fun. If they are laughing at you, you laugh along with them. At the end of the day, either way, you are the one laughing.

Think of something that scares you. Something that you usually don't dare to say or do. Now imagine that you actually proceed with that thing. What good/bad can come out of it? Now imagine that you didn't do that thing. What good/bad can come out of that? Which one of the good side is worth the most? Which one of the bad side is the worst of them? Which one stings the most in a short period of time? Which one stings less at a time, but over a longer period of time? Choose wisely.

She Her smile Her eyes Her voice Her laugh Her warmth Her existence She

Mesmerising thoughts in my twisted mind. First thing when I wake up in the morning, last thing when I fall asleep at night. You're in my mind, my dreams, my soul. The warmth I feel when you are close to me, hugging me. Your hugs, they're the pinnacle when we meet. They are what I want the most whenever I get a chance to see you. Your eyes! Your gorgeous eyes. Like emeralds on the night sky. Oh, we are so close, so close to actually kiss. But we don't. Hugs will have to do. For now. Tender love. You are my everything, the whole world to me. I want you forever and ever, my love will never seize to exist. I will always love you.

The joy You're walking by my side, smiling and laughing. No troubled heart, no unnecessary pressure. Friendship - so pure, so innocent. The love   Your smile, your voice, you. Forever in my thoughts. Not a single day goes by without your presence in my mind. The fear   I'm being too needy. Asking over and over again to meet up. You need time, you need space. I know that all too well. But I don't want to live without you. I need you. The talk I'm scared, you're scared.   At least we're being honest. Your voice, your face. My voice, my face. We wont lie, we can't lie. There's no reason

  The sunlight is shining on the top of my head, should I stay or leave the warmth of my bed? Drinking beer while birds sing in the rain, what the hell lets drown the pain. Eat pills or cut my throat with a sharpened knife, does it really matter when all I want is to end my life? Even though I stumble through the darkness at night, I keep my head up high and my eyes straight at the light. When I see your face my heart starts to beat, but I have to stay cool in case I overheat. All the joy and love that you share and give, I've finally found a reason to live.

  I saw you, I fell for you. Not for your body, your good looks. Though you are truly gorgeous, there is something far more amazing: You! Your mind, your soul. That's you, and only you. That's what I love. You're my desire. You!

  A sharpened pen in my hand and a paper on my lap, bright and white like a freshly cleaned bed sheet. A lot of thoughts, there's so much I wish to say,   but the paper is still blank like my own mind, and my heart is as hard as concrete. I wish I could express all of my feelings, all of my love, from the depths of this planets core, all the way up, to the stars above.

I don't bleed or cry, I don't scream or yell. I don't laugh or smile, I don't live or die. What the hell is wrong with me?

  Oh you silly humans and your search for purpose in everything you see. Can't you just accept the randomness that is existence? There's no hidden meaning behind all this bullshit; it's just there.

Love your haters. They are your biggest fans, because they keep on wasting time just to watch your every wrong move.