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I saw you, I fell for you.
Not for your body, your good looks.
Though you are truly gorgeous,
there is something far more amazing:
Your mind, your soul.
That's you, and only you.
That's what I love.
You're my desire.
You feel the shame in your heart.
You are scared. Still you stand tall.
You turn your head.
A quick glance at the ones behind you.
They're laughing. For what reason?
You know your boundaries, your own flaws.
You know who you are, they don't.
If they are laughing with you, you join in on the fun.
If they are laughing at you, you laugh along with them.
At the end of the day, either way, you are the one laughing.
A sharpened pen in my hand and a paper on my lap,
bright and white like a freshly cleaned bed sheet.
A lot of thoughts, there's so much I wish to say,
but the paper is still blank like my own mind,
and my heart is as hard as concrete.
I wish I could express all of my feelings, all of my love,
from the depths of this planets core, all the way up, to the stars above.
Circle of loveThe joy
You're walking by my side, smiling and laughing.
No troubled heart, no unnecessary pressure.
Friendship - so pure, so innocent.
Your smile, your voice, you.
Forever in my thoughts.
Not a single day goes by without your presence in my mind.
I'm being too needy. Asking over and over again to meet up.
You need time, you need space. I know that all too well.
But I don't want to live without you. I need you.
I'm scared, you're scared.
At least we're being honest.
Your voice, your face. My voice, my face.
We wont lie, we can't lie. There's no reason to lie.
But can my love for you survive?
Will we ever be one?
Only time will tell.
Lost and confused
I'm lost in a world were I should feel safe.
I'm loved in a world that I usually hate.
I'm lost, in me, without you.
Can dreams come true?
The sky is the limit,
and I'm afraid it's falling down.
High expectations leads to disapointment.
I can't be fixed, 'cause I was never broken.
Knowing the path, walking the path
Only they who have felt the darkness inside and seen the light outside.
Only they who managed to survive the darkest of times and brought the light inside.
Only they who have walked down both paths.
Only they know the difference between knowing and walking the path.
Only they can fully understand and forgive me.
Only they can know.
Emotionless KissIt's not like I can even fight it so why do I still attempt..
To drag myself out of my self created lament..?
I tried to make things right but I can't force out your repent...
You're standing right next to me so why do you feel so distant?!
I only wish
To take your hand
Pull you in close
And do everything that I can
To keep you
I wanted to make you mine
Though I waited and waited
You never gave me a sign
It's not like I try to hide it so why is it that you ignore me?
I've got no one to confide in and you won't even reassure me...
Maybe when I'm gone you'll finally start missing me...
It's strange that when I'm dead how you'll finally start listening..
And I hope
That you're happy with this
We can try to save ourselves
With an emotionless kiss
But it's too late
You've missed your chance
Let your love die
And lost out on our romance
I really wish that you could hear me as I'm crying out in pain..
But in this blanketing darkness nothing ever will look the same...
Waking UpI wake up again in the middle of the night
Cold sweat dripping I don't know if I'm alright
Cause it's the millionth time
That I've dreamt you were mine
But now I see
It's only me
With no one else
I'm by myself...
I can hear my heartbeat echo off these walls
As I wander aimlessly through these desolate halls
I keep thinking that I'm hearing your desperate call
But that's just me pretending trying so hard not to fall
I listen to the wind as it whispers by me
But the words that it speaks aren't registering
I listen to the rain as it pours to the ground
I'm looking for you but you're nowhere around
I really fucking hate being alone
Always looking like I've got somewhere to go
When the truth of it all is that I have no home
But I lie say I like being on my own
I'm stumbling down the side of an empty street
Struggling just to stand, to stay on my feet
I can't seem to forget you or this defeat
I can feel the world around me begin to sink
I'm looking at the horizon and a setting sun
Nonet Two I ThoughtI Thought
I thought you would not ever hurt me.
I guess I was completely wrong.
You promised to protect me,
The end was prolonged.
You said you loved me.
I can't be strong.
Please help me.
Never Come.Keep on looking for the horizon
That just simply isn't there
Why keep looking for the light
When your visions been impaired
You can say you'll wait forever
But what do those words mean
If you don't put forth the effort
And all you do is fight and scream
Go ahead and waste your time
Waiting for the bright impending dawn
By the time that it arrives
I'll be nothing more than gone...
I refuse to surface.
I will turn my limbs into fins,
layer my skin with scales.
I will slit my throat, such delicate gills.
Down here, they are mutable, shifting, first whale
then urchin, all spine and stomach.
Up there, air and light fossilize,
a trilobite caught in stone.
Nonet Four MaturityMaturity
As I grow older I start to see.
This life for what it really is.
Death is unpredictable.
Success is not assured.
Pleasure is short lived.
Pain is promised.
Positive and Negative+ -
Replace a negative with a positive.
Combine a horizontal line with a vertical.
Find a balance between action and the cognitive.
However this process is all but surgical.
Positivity is not always visible.
Where Is The Light?Where is the light that you promised to me?!
I thought it was clear that I needed you here!
I feel so alone, so lost and confused...
I'm stumbling blindly, don't know what to do!
Where is the light that stopped all of my tears?
I stay up all night 'cause I can't sleep with these fears...
Where are you now that I'm falling apart?!
You left nothing here but this hole in my heart!
Where is the light when I need it the most..?
Why did it leave and where did it go?
What did I do to lose all that I've known...?
How can I live when I've lost all my hope?!
Maybe it's me who has misunderstood!
If I could fix my mistakes then believe me I would!
You're the piece of my heart that will make me complete!
But I can't hold to your lies and deceit!
I may look alive but I'm dying inside!
Dealing with all of this pain that I hide!
I wish that you couldve had the decency...
To at least put me out of my misery!
Where is the light when I need it so badly..?
Why do I try to be
The sunlight is shining on the top of my head,
should I stay or leave the warmth of my bed?
Drinking beer while birds sing in the rain,
what the hell lets drown the pain.
Eat pills or cut my throat with a sharpened knife,
does it really matter when all I want is to end my life?
Even though I stumble through the darkness at night,
I keep my head up high and my eyes straight at the light.
When I see your face my heart starts to beat,
but I have to stay cool in case I overheat.
All the joy and love that you share and give,
I've finally found a reason to live.
LatreuophobiaI wash off sick-sweet orange lipstick in front of a mirror as dusty as gothic romances. It tastes like oblivion, that is to say, like nothing my tongue can detect.
The door opens with a creak no private restroom could emulate. Some chick with blue bobbed hair and smeared eyeliner. I looked like that once. Ten years ago.
Getting the beer out of my hair is harder. Some men just can't take it when I'd rather they not kiss my feet or call me an angel or-
“Dayum girl, you look like a goddess.”
I gulp, taste of acid.
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